I am confused...wait, maybe I'm not...

This is a picture by Freud, titled Confused.

This is soooo how I feel. Maybe it's the change of seasons.

I think I am in need of a change. My seasons need changing. More than just a hair cut and color. A real change. I am having my carpets cleaned today, but I don't think that's enough. Good change, yes. Enough change, no.

I got a phone call at 4:30am today. No caller ID available, it showed up as "private." There is only one lunatic who comes to mind when this happens. Thoughts of him take my mind to a bad place. No promise or bargain could ever make me return to this place. But still, this horrible dark memory exists in my mind. If nothing else, it serves as a reminder of the personality I never want in my life, ever. Hence, single girl, not even looking.

So...I need change. maybe clarity is a better word to use to describe this desire. Okay, I need clarity. A friend says I need a good tire rotation. That could very well be true.

Events in my life are causing me to think to seriously. Those who know me, know I enjoy giving unnecessary thought to random ideas. So today, I will be confused and in need of clarity.