Clouds for Boobie!

Sweet Boobie! The clouds were so pretty today. It made me think of my friend, Boobie.

You know how a certain smell, breeze, song, lots of different, random moments can completly transport you to a spot in your memory where, for just a second, you relive a certain event, but only for a second. A Deja Vu of sorts, but not quite.

The smell of cotton candy takes me back to the local rollerskating rink, when I was 10. I know everytime I smell this food, I will instantly go back, again for just a second. Good Times. I have always called these sweet moments "LifeSavers" (like the candy). I'm not sure how they got this name, it's just always stuck.

I can't even commit to an area rug....

the buddha
Originally uploaded by tink927.

I am going to a wedding this weekend. Yeah, yeah. The ceremony will be a drag, but the reception should be a good time. My bestest friend of 30+ years is getting married. I don't get to see her very often so, I am all a twitter about getting to hang out before the big event.

I can't even make myself commit on an area rug for my living room, much less a significant other. Which got me thinking....I am letting the good fellas go by? I have known a few, missed opportunities, and sometimes wondered if I screwed up by letting that one go. Or does that fall into the whole "fate" category, you know, if it should be, it will?

I am confused...wait, maybe I'm not...

This is a picture by Freud, titled Confused.

This is soooo how I feel. Maybe it's the change of seasons.

I think I am in need of a change. My seasons need changing. More than just a hair cut and color. A real change. I am having my carpets cleaned today, but I don't think that's enough. Good change, yes. Enough change, no.

I got a phone call at 4:30am today. No caller ID available, it showed up as "private." There is only one lunatic who comes to mind when this happens. Thoughts of him take my mind to a bad place. No promise or bargain could ever make me return to this place. But still, this horrible dark memory exists in my mind. If nothing else, it serves as a reminder of the personality I never want in my life, ever. Hence, single girl, not even looking.

So...I need change. maybe clarity is a better word to use to describe this desire. Okay, I need clarity. A friend says I need a good tire rotation. That could very well be true.

Events in my life are causing me to think to seriously. Those who know me, know I enjoy giving unnecessary thought to random ideas. So today, I will be confused and in need of clarity.